Why does it feel like I'm doing less.

I have learnt something about myself much more recently.

I value recognition.

I look forward to hear words of praises.

I want to do better.

For myself at least.

I deserve better.

Really.

Maybe its time that I put myself

into a new environment to grow.

Where should I be looking.

What direction do I want to go towards.

Why should I be below all these.

Whose gonna be standing behind me.

When can I get this direction.

How.

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I dont want to go to the lift lobby. I just want to find something I can do to make myself feel better.

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Trust vs Expectations

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